So… it’s my birthday today.
I hope this year something will change (for better).
I want to fight my demons and not give up.
In few days/ weeks I’ll be hospitalized.
I know that my family, friends, doctors and psychologist want to help me.
And I think I should be ready to accept this help and start the recovery.
It’ll be a LONG AND HARD journey…
My biggest wish for today is… to eat my birthday cake and NOT feel guilty and fat.
And I won’t let any suicidal thoughts cross my mind tomorrow.
I want to enjoy this day..
It’s my 18th birthday. I’m “adult”.
I’m not a child anymore, so I shouldn’t act like one.
I don’t believe in myself, I don’t see any positive future for me…
But I’ll try to change that and I’ll give happiness a go.
And from that place I’d like to say thank you to all my friends, to my family and of course to my psychologist (the best!!!)… I know that neither my family and psychologist won’t read this, but I don’t care. I hope that at least two of my friends will read the words below:
YOU ARE THE BEST. I LOVE YOU. THANK YOU. I DON’T KNOW, WHAT I’D DO WITHOUT YOU <3 You are the reason I didn’t really give up. I had really hard moments, but I’m still alive, so I made it. I got to this point thanks to you. Cause you didn’t give up on me, when I did give up on myself.
I’m so thankful and glad to have people like you around me. I’m really lucky. I should start to appreciate that, so why not make my 18th birthday a turning point?
I hope I am strong enough to make this,